Dream 16 August 2013
Had a strange, horrifying nightmare, part of which took place at a party. Somebody I know was at the party, standing in the corner with a handbag which contained a gun. She threatened to take her own life. Her mother stood on the other side of the room, and she motioned to me. She whispered to me, "Just let her do it."
I said, "What?"
"Just let her do it. She's been carrying that gun around like a sundress, and I always knew that someday she'd wear that sundress.”
Her callousness traumatized my heart.
“Fuck that and fuck you, you open sore.”
I walked to the woman in the corner and embraced her, told her she was smart and funny and beautiful, that everyone loved her. She trembled in my arms and wept, and dropped the gun.